If anyone lacks wisdom you should ask God who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask you must believe and not doubt because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea blown and tossed by the wind.”James 1:5-6
In the wee hours of the morning, I asked God to give me wisdom. This wasn’t a typical prayer for me. As a single mom, I had a lot of requests to make of God.
However, for some puzzling reason, the only thing I wanted from God was wisdom. I lay back down after my prayer and must have fallen asleep. I had a dream that someone was leading me by the hand. The hand lifted me up over a dry and thorny branch. The hand put me on a roof and briefly left me there. After a while, the hand pull me off the roof and placed me in a meadow. I woke from my sleep after seeing myself surrounded by green grass.
I had no idea what the dream meant. But it was so vivid even now 9 or so years later I can still talk about it from memory as if it happened last night. I even drew a picture of what I envisioned in the dream.
As life unfolded for me in New York City, I began to see the meaning of my dream. I had been at a place of severe lack when I first received it. But he had taken me away from that and brought me to a new city where I felt blessed. I stayed in that place for quite some time.
But now I’m seeing that I’m no longer at that place. It’s not that I see a meadow. And it’s not that I don’t feel blessed. Things are different but I don’t feel like I’m in a meadow.
At the time I got this dream, I had a lot of questions for God. I was a divorced mom with 3 sons. My oldest was estranged from me at the time. Life as I saw it was very confusing and overwhelming. But God showed me his hand not just leading but carrying me. I’m still in awe.
God cares about our feelings. He’s touched by our insecurities and pain. When you ask him for wisdom to understand and discern what’s happening in your life, he’ll give you the answer. You just have to expect him to answer. Because he will. Sometimes the answer is not what we are hoping for. But wisdom and understanding will help us gain perspective on God’s will for our lives.
Let us pray: Dear Lord, we thank you that you don’t judge us when we ask you for anything. You don’t snicker and make jokes when we are in pain. You lovingly provide what we need. Thank you. In Jesus’ name we pray. Amen