He that dwells in the secret place of the most high shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.Psalm 91:1
When I was in my early thirties. I turned my back on God. I turned my back on the church. And on anything religious. Because I was devastated after I was stripped of my duties after divorce.
I was devastated because my life was wrapped up in the church. My identity even. But now I figured I didn’t need church. Definitely didn’t need God. Who uplifted abusers and adulterers.
But after several years of going through one disappointment after another: roommates skipping out on paying rent, losing my job on trumped up accusations because people were trying to hide their extra marital affairs; and getting punched in the mouth by a”friend”.
I realized that it wasn’t God’s fault. It was me. I walked away from his protection.
I had a vision of a huge tree. Its leaves and branches were spread wide. Under the tree was protection from the elements. When I pictured myself, I was not under that tree because I had walked away.
I wasn’t under God’s protection. The vision revealed that I had walked away from God. I had left His secret place. And all the time I was crying to God asking him why he wasn’t helping me. I believed he was calling me. But I wasn’t listening. I was too busy feeling sorry for myself.
He was over there and I was over here. Are you going to help me or not? But I heard Him saying come over here. But all I would say is are you going to help me or not?
It took me awhile but I eventually returned home where I belong. In my Master’s open arms.
When it seems like life is falling apart and nothing is working right. Call on God. Trust in him. Because, when you pull at a knitted sweater it will keep unraveling. That’s what happens when you walk away from God.
I’m not saying that when you are dwelling in the secret place of the most high, that life is perfect. No. He said,
“…In the world you shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.”John 6 33
When you rest under His care you can have peace of mind. Knowing that He has everything under control.
We have to understand that even though he gives us choices, he’s not gonna run after us.
So I encourage you to stop running. Whatever happens, stay under his wings. Talk to Him. No matter how you feel, read his word and ask him to speak to your heart.
You’re still his child, no matter how you mess up. I want to remind you that Christ died for your sins before you were even born. Just think about that.
Let us pray. Lord, thank you for being a loving God that never fails. Lord, help us to trust you. Help us to understand that you love us, that all our sins were washed away on the cross.